What is it?

What is it that we all crave to make us feel complete?

When we are free and single, we seek it when we meet

Wanting it to change our lives, hoping for solution

Willing it to cleanse our worlds riddled with pollution.

Striving for a new beginning to take us from our past

Into a brighter future where we are free at last

Away from our anxieties, our stresses and our fears

Into a world of sharing, a world of no more tears?

What is it that makes us cry when we are filled with joy?

That warms us inexplicably-affects each girl and boy

Serves us with a purpose, drives us from within

To reach out to one-another, to cherish everything?

What is it that bonds a mother to her unborn child?

That soothes the worst of tempers, turns violent into mild

Produces strange reactions, makes us question why?

Exposes all our weaknesses, often makes us cry?

Fills us with such jealousy, irrational thoughts abound

Magnifying every mood, searching all around

For any shred of evidence to prove the claims are true

Driven with such passion we search each avenue?

What is it that gives us hope when everything looks bleak?

When life has dealt some dreadful blows and we are feeling weak

When all around seems dismal, our world a heartless place

What is it that uplifts us when we look in some-ones` face?

What is it that makes all things right, when all around is wrong?

Enables us to try again, gives strength to carry on

Aids us through our troubles, conquers all our fears

Manipulates emotions from birth to latter years

Makes us caring human beings created from above?

God`s gift to all the human race – the gift of how to love.

Autumn

Vibrant blue,

the sky holds such promise;

fluffly white clouds float aimlessly

making unknown shapes above our heads.

The sun may appear

but it`s strength has been sapped

by the summertime.

The wind from the North

with it`s icy fingers of bitterness

turns green to orange, red, yellow

and then brown,

stripping leaves of their loveliness;

to be crunched underfoot.

Wildlife scurries and flurries

looking for warmth;

foraging and hoarding

for the imminent winter.

Bushes robbed of their berries

by chilling winds,

birds must fly south

for warmer climes,

for it is Autumn.

Post Natal

“You`re suffering from depression” the doctor said to me
“Lets hope it doesnt last long – we`ll have to wait and see”
“It`s not a rare occurence after giving birth,
your hormones have gone haywire
– you`ll soon be down to earth”.

“Forget about the cleaning – concentrate on Cain
the dusting can be left for now, you`ll soon be well again”.
Involve the other members of the family in your task
delegate the household chores, dont wait for them to ask”.
“Ignore the little doubts you have, i`m sure that Dad will cope
otherwise he`ll fob him off and you wont have a hope”
We`ll have to watch your heart rate, your pressure`s rather high
but you dont need to worry – we know the reason why”.
“Dont feel like you`re a prisoner, take baby for a walk
there`s always the Health Visitor who will come and talk
She`s seen it all before, you know, she`ll fill you will advice
appear all bright and cheerful, be caring and….. so nice”
She`ll point out any problems, have all the answers too
tell you what you`re doing wrong without belittling you”

“Have you considered counselling or would you rather wait
to see if this depression will pass and put you straight?”
I cant prescribe you tablets (breastfeeding Cain, u see)
perhaps when you have weaned him you should come to me”
“Remember, you`re important! It`s easy to forget
– run around for everyone! you`ll only fuss and fret”
“See me early next week, we`ll discuss what we can do
to get you on your feet again – to make you feel brand new”.

Love Whirlpools

Love is so emotional because it is all emcompassing.

We allow it to take over our whole lives, our whole being.

We give it so much importance allowing it to control so many aspects of our lives

blindly seeing it as a positive force.

Unfortunately love can have a negative effect on our lives.

It makes us question both our rational and irrational thought processes and behaviour.

We believe it has the power to put us in a place we all strive for – a Utopia filled with total happiness, peace and contentment.

Sadly, it also has the power to heighten and intensify our senses to the point of combustion.

We try not to be washed away on the tide of love for fear of drowning in a stream of passionate extremities.

Yet, we know we have little choice….to truly love is to allow oneself to be emotionally swept away.

We only ride the waves of emotional bliss once or twice in our lives…sometimes love is not enough…..there are too many whirlpools in the stream and our hearts sink,

leaving our souls to drown.

Just Once!

Just once,

 let me feel important, intelligent,

interesting

Just once,

 let my words be heard,

 understood, acknowledged

Just once,

 feel my passion, my conviction and solitude

in a world of unsettled hostilities

Just once,

 let me feel worthwhile, useful

and valued

where my thoughts are seen as wise,

knowledgeable and viable

Just once,

accept my true being

without criticism or distain,

ridicule or insignificance

Just once,

 hear my pleas for positive reaction,

encouragement and merit

Just once,

do not judge or mock me

trivialising my attempts and and endeavours

Just once,

 show support, consideration,

empathy and understanding

Just once,

allow me to be me!